I've been with my girlfriend "J" for two years. Her best friend "M" is a gay man she's known since high school. M and I have hung out many times. He seems cool, but lately I've been wondering if he and J are fucking behind my back. For starters, J and I rarely have sex anymore. Even a kiss on the cheek happens less than once a week. Meanwhile, J's Facebook feed has pictures of M grabbing her tits outside of a gay club in front of her sister. She told me he's spent the night in her room, even though he lives only a few miles away. I've also recently found out that although M has a strong preference for men, he considers himself bisexual. I understand that everyone loves tits, even if they're not turned on by them, and gay men can sleep with a girl and actually just ... sleep. I also know that her antidepressants can kill sex drive. All three things at once feel like more than just coincidence, though. At the very least, the PDAs seem disrespectful. At worst, I'm a blind fool who's been replaced. Am I insecure or is there something to these worries?
— You Pick The Acronym I Gotta Get To Work
Your girlfriend's best friend isn't gay, YPTAIGGTW, he's bisexual — so, yeah, it's entirely possible M is fucking your girlfriend, since fucking girls is something bisexual guys do and, according to one study, they're better at it. (Australian women who had been with both bi and straight guys ranked their bi male partners as more attentive lovers, more emotionally available, and better dads, according to the results of a study published in 2016.) But while we can't know for sure whether M is fucking J, YPTAIGGTW, we do know who she isn't fucking: you. If the sex is rare and a kiss — on the cheek — is a once-a-week occurrence, it's time to pull the plug. Yes, antidepressants can be a libido killer. They can also be a dodge. If your girlfriend doesn't regard the lack of sex as a problem and isn't working on a fix — if she's prioritizing partying with her bisexual bestie over talking to her doc and adjusting her meds, if she hasn't offered you some sort of accommodation/outlet/work-around for the lack of sex — trust your gut and get out.
I'm a recently divorced woman with a high libido. Now that I'm single, I've come out as a kinkster. I quickly met someone who swept me off my feet — smart, funny, sexy, proudly pervy, and experienced in the BDSM scene — and soon he declared himself as my Dom and I assumed the sub role. This was hot as hell at first. I loved taking his orders, knowing how much my subservience pleased him, and surprising myself with just how much pain and humiliation I could take. However, his fantasies quickly took a darker turn. When I say I'm uncomfortable with the extremely transgressive territory he wants to explore, he says, "I'm your master and you take my orders." I think this is shitty form — the bottom should always set the limits. When we're in play, he says that I chose him as my top precisely because I wanted to see how far I could go and that it's his job to push me out of my comfort zone. I think he's twisting my words. Arguing over limits mid-scene makes us both frustrated and angry. I'm not in any physical danger, but his requests (if carried out) could ruin some of my existing relationships. Did I blow it by not giving him a list of my hard limits in advance of becoming his sub? Or is he just a shitty, inconsiderate top trying to take advantage of a novice? After play, he checks in to see if I'm okay, which on the surface looks like great form —aftercare and all — but this also feels manipulative. How can I pull things back to where I'm comfortable? Do I run from the scene, or just this guy?
— Tired Of Overreaching From A Shitty Top
A top who reopens negotiations about limits and what's on the BDSM menu during a scene — a time when the sub will feel tremendous pressure to, well, submit — is not a top you can trust. The same goes for a top who makes demands that, if obeyed, could ruin their sub's relationships with family, friends, other partners, etc. Run from this guy, TOOFAST, but not from the scene. There are better tops out there. Go find one.
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